Thine own consciousness, shining, void, and inseparable from the Great Body of Radiance, hath no birth, nor death, and is the Immutable Boundless Light.
Padmasambhava, The Tibetan Book of the Dead
Padmasambhava, The Tibetan Book of the Dead
Universal Mind Lattice by Alex Gray
This post is going to serve as a collective journal entry... I needed to write it out for a classmate, but thought some of you may have an interest in reading this so here you go....
Notice there is no music, there is no piece of music I know of that can compliment my experiences from the last two days, so for this post I must omit the tunes. :)
I had a piece of homework from our last module (held at the beginning of the summer) to complete before this module. The assignment was to write a page about our experience with what is called the 3 stage process. Simplified, this is where we find a pattern in the body where there is movement, great stillness, then more movement. I thought I understood what this was, but had the most difficult time "labeling" it in my clients. I thought I was just not "getting it". I figured that I would just get it someday, but not right now. I have allowed myself the gift of practice and time to embody this work. There is so much to learn and I will learn it all eventually. Some things will only be learned through repetition and others from the written word.
Yesterday John, the teacher, was demo-ing a new way to hold the body and mentioned the 3 stage process again. He says... "the 3rd stage can be any movement in the body, anywhere, not just where the original movement started." Seriously?? This whole time... I was thinking it was something else. I felt that!! I felt that a bunch with my recent clients! Woohoo! A sigh of relief washed over me after he said that, as if he turned directly to me and said "You have what it takes to do this work, you are on the right path, stay with this". A huge weight was lifted. Sometimes we need to be in a different place to accept information, I am sure he explained the 3 stage process in great detail last module, but I just wasn't ready to embed that information into my cellular memory.
We learned about the sacrum and a sacral hold yesterday in class. Our sacrum is vital to our Being. It makes up part of the cradle for life, potential and literally, it grounds our energetic centers to security and to the Earth, and soooo much more I don't have time to write about today. My lovely partner B did a session on me first. Her right relationship was so comforting and safe. (right relationship is like energetic distance). When she placed her hand under my sacrum I had an intense sensation at the bridge of my nose. It was like a string was being pulled from behind the bridge of my nose and my 3rd eye. Little tugs and pressure. I have never felt anything like it before. The sacrum (specifically the coccyx) is tied to the ethmoid (a bone behind your nose) among others in the same area. My mom asked me today if that feeling was scary, NO not at all. It is fascinating to feel the movements big and small in your body. Your analytical brain tells you constantly that you are safe and you are not actually being split, rocking, falling off the table, or whatever the movement feels like. You might be making that movement, but it might be fascia or even energetic. The bones DO move, but the oceanic movement that you feel might not be able to be seen by the naked human eye.
When it came my turn to be the practitioner, I felt more grounded, closer to the Earth. I had no trouble finding right relationship with B. Our TA came over to help, but I sort of lost what I was feeling. I decided to go down to the sacrum and hang out. The TA stayed by B's head while I focused at her sacrum. Earlier in the day we practiced the technique of focusing on an object then just the space around it and between us. Object. Space, so forth. SO I tried to do just that with B at her sacrum. So I broadened my scope and focused on the physical space between us. Then the space between my hand and her sacrum. Then, I focused on the space between her midline and my midline.
Spiritual Energy System by Alex Gray
This would be a midline represented in art by artist Alex Gray. Its actually very similar to what I got as a visual in my minds eye when working on B. I got a rush over me that we are ALL JUST MIDLINES! That's it! There is no body, no happy no sad, no duality, just pure Being. I realize this can be a bit much for many people. I truly believe that this is what enlightenment must be. When you can live in a state much like this, where you realize the impermanence of physical life on Earth. Where you can see the bigger picture. It was AMAZING! During this whole time B was experiencing many big movements and shifts. I wasn't really tuned into them because I was out there. Good thing the TA was close by to talk her through her own breakthroughs. My ultimate goal is to keep that same space for my clients, but also stay in my thoughts to help them through their shifts and own awareness. I want to recognize the anatomy that is speaking and be able to reflect it back to the client. All in time, I am just thrilled to have had that experience. I feel like an infant. New to this world, making discoveries, practicing new skills.
I don't feel "special" that I have had these experiences, just honored. I am delighted that I have found a way to connect with other humans in a unique and healing way. I feel as if I have discovered part of my Purpose here on Earth.
If you are a friend of mine and you have read this far, thank you. Thank you for taking an interest in me and my experiences. I hope I can reciprocate the same to you!