Monday, November 24, 2008

Deep heartache

I am still carrying a deep sense of loss for my mama friend who recently lost her husband unexpectedly. I think about her every day, as well as her 3 year old daughter. Its as if a hurricane came through my community but only wiped away her home and all its belongings, yet the rest of us feel the pain as if it were us.
During the last school module I was fortunate to get some bodywork to help integrate my confusion and sadness. It has greatly touched my heart to be part of a community of women who have supported her over the last couple of weeks. It has been a realization of a large extended family, who I love and support as much as my own blood relatives.
A classmate of mine who is a local midwife, lost her husband about 5 years ago and was a great help to me this past few days. She gave me some great advice about the care taking of a sudden widow, and I hope I can look into some of the things she mentioned.
Life will go on.. in a different way... it always has and always will. But for now my heart aches as I hold tight to my family. I am lucky to have today, and that's all that matters.

Today's song is Iron and Wine.. naked as we come


Mia's Mama said...

I'm glad your wonderful caring friend was able to help you out a little.
This is all very close to my heart as well. My father passed away very similarly, and was the hardest thing that's eer happened in my life...what might have been harder...and still is, is watching my mother and knowing how profound her loss is.
It all brings things a little more in perspective...what really matters most :)
Love you!

gale said...

So well said, Sara. I've been right there with you as far as thinking about her daily. Several times a day. Such a precious, short life we are living. And, so glad to have all of you in it!